The Benny is now 4 year-old

I haven't mentioned much that I have a puppy. Well he might not be considered as a puppy anymore but I like to call that way. His name is Benny. And this year, this March Benny already turns to 4 year-and 6 months old.

But since I quit a job last May, and then joined Mekong School, he had to go to stay with my parents' house in Chiang Rai. I can't take care of him any longer. Actually, Benny had to go a few months before that - I moved out from a house then stayed in a dorm where there was no space for him. That's all. However, I go to Chiang Rai from time to time to visit him and be with him.

Today I really miss him, haven't seen him for quite awhile. Thinking of him, and me, about the journeys and adventures we have been through together. Whenever I feel sad, whenever I cry he is always with me and never leave my side. I cooked for him, and he didn't like it - that's the best story for all time which my mom always teases me with. 'Your cook must be terrible, even Benny can't eat it.' Says my mom.

In October 2006, Benny was run over by a pick-up truck. His hips bone was broken, he was almost gone, but he fought and eventually survived through the night. We took good care of him, until his body and bone were recovered. About three months after he could begin to walk again, but yet to run. We were so happy to see him walking and playing around again. That was a miracle. And now he rans SO fast, nobody believes that he was once hit by a car and had to stay, couldn't move for like three months. Well, he is super fast runner, still.

Later on, after his recover from the accident, we had to take him to hospital again. This time, there was a pock on his ear and a vet said we needed to cut it off. You can see a photo below that he had to wear a rounded plastic to prevent him from his feet.

Really miss Benny today, can't go to see him now as my heart wish so that I do blogging about him here. A million hugs for him... my puppy.

The first week that he stayed with us.

When he was about 2-3 months old, we took him to a park in Chiang Mai University.

I sewn and made alphabet 'B' on his colar leash, unfortunately he wore just for a month or so because he grew up so fast, got bigger and couldn't wear it anymore.

He was playing in the garden at our country house, in Chiang Mai.

Benny was put on the bench, while we were cleaning house, he was just runny around and was naughty. We put him up there, and he was so scared, quite funny. Look at his face!

After the cutting off a pock, he was still feeling dizzy from the medicine that put him to sleep.

Kissing Benny...

Still young, but his face is like a very old dog.

Some times in January, 2008

Busy, but not busy

This week was busy, and I am glad that Friday has finally arrived. Four classes and one meeting made me feel like wanna sleep and don't wanna wake up anymore. However, I took the time off a few hours and do my water color painting. They were not yet that 'good' and need lots of practices. I also bought new brushes and a bottle of masking glue aimed to create a new piece by using this masking technique. This it's all for today. Tomorrow, I've got to do some homework otherwise the end of the semester I would be stay up all day, all night trying to finish all the term papers. :o)

G'morning Sunday and little darlin'

Woke up today, fully recovered from terrible migraine. I started to paint again. Today the weather is quite nice, looking outside there is blue sky, and the wind blows touching my face.

Then, a movie 'Jerry Maguire' (1996) came in my mind. I remember that when this movie came out as a VDO, back then when I was about thirteen years old. I was so in love with this movie, and kept watching it, not because of Tom Cruise but Renee Zellweger I suppose. Her act is in the movie is wonderful. The very first movies she's in and she did impress the audience.

One of the songs I just kept listening to, is 'The Horses' by Rickie Lee Jones. I didn't really know what its lyric meaning. Back in those years, the internet access was still unpopular. What I did, was to recorded the song and repeated it trying to get the lyric right. It was something fun, and there were many people did like that, actually. :o)

Here we go, the lyric is nice and I would love to put it here for remember this beautiful Sunday, and another lovin' moment I have while doing my painting. Also, the little Por, little self in me, who keeps encouraging me to do whatever I want to do, to love me however I am. Cheers for my little Por, my little darlin' of my own...

We will fly way up high

where the cold wind blows

Or in the sun, laughing and having fun

With the people that she knows

And if the situation should keep us separated

You know the world won't fall apart

And you will free the beautiful bird

That's caught inside your heart

Can't you hear her? Oh she cries so loud

Casts her wild note, over water and cloud

That's the way it's gonna be, little darlin'

We'll be riding ont he horses, yeah

Way up in the sky, little darlin'

And if you fall I'll pick you up, pick you up

You'll grow, and until you go

I'll be right there by your side

And even then, whisper the wind

And she will carry up your ride

I hear all the people of the world

In a little bird's lonely cry

See them trying every way they know how

To make their spirits fly

Can't you see him, he's down on the ground

He has a broken wind, looking all around

That's the way it's gonna be, little darlin'

You'll be riding on the horses, yeah

Way up in the sky, little darlin'

And if you fall I'll pick you up, pick you up

Don't worry 'bout a thing little girl

Because I was young myself not so long ago

And when I was young, when I was young

And when I was young,

oh I was a wild, wild one....

Wide awake

Another watercolor painting, and I did it while listening to Emi Fujita's Camomile Extra album. The whole album is full of good songs, and with her voice - have filled the air in my room with warmth and love. Though out there the gray sky of Bangkok could easily make me feel blue.

The dawn breaks slowly in the east

- as day defeats the night

The eccho of your voice that greets

The feeble morning light

Is the only answer to my silent prayer

And the promises i never make

You are always with me - your always there

In my dreams - though i am wide awake

And sometimes a forbidden glance

Will give my heart away

The light that kindled our romance

May flicker through the gray

All the gold and silver at the rainbows end

All earthly goods - i'll forsake

For each shooting star - a wish i send

And i dream - though i am wide awake

You were the rolling tidal wave

That swept my barren shores

If you will let me share your day

My life's forever yours

I will never understand the reason why

We fail to learn from our mistakes

I will wait for you as the days go by

With my dream - though i am wide awake

(Song 'Wide Awake')

Life is wonderful

It takes a crane to build a crane

It takes two floors to make a story

It takes an eggs to make a hen

It takes a hen to make an egg

There is no end to what I'm saying

It takes a thought to make a word

And it takes a word to make an action

It takes some good to make it hurt

It takes some bad for satisfaction

La la la la la la la life is wonderful

Ah la la la la la la life is full circle

Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful...

It takes a night to make it dawn

And it takes a day to you yawn brother

It takes some old to make you young

It takes some cold to know the sun

It takes the one to have the other

It takes no time to fall in love

But it takes you years to make you what love is

It takes some tears to make it rust

It takes some dust to make it polished

It takes some silence to make sound

It takes a loss before you found it

It takes a road to go nowhere

It takes a toll to know you care

It takes a hole to make a mountain

(Life is wonderful by Jason Mraz)